Rest, recover & reminisce


Days without a serious fall: 35

Weeks since last chemo infusion: 7

Zelda: [Last night, we were in bed by 10:00 PM, and asleep by 10:15. But Zach started tossing and turning at about 2:30 AM. By 3:00 he was mostly awake. I know, ‘cause I’d been listening to his breathing change. I wasn't sleeping either. So what do you do at 3:00 AM when you can't sleep? We reminisce about the good old days.]


Zach: Is it too early to get up?


Zelda: Uh huh. 


Zach: Dang. Those Deep Sleep CBD gummies don’t work for shit.


Zelda: Too much on your mind?


Zach: Uh huh.


Zelda: Have you tried focusing on your breath?


Zach: Screw that nonsense. Focus on your own breath.


Zelda: How about distracting yourself with a happy memory.


Zach: Like what?


Zelda: Your favorite Valentine's day.


Zach: Go on…


Zelda: You surprised me with reservations for dinner at the best restaurant in town: Casa Blanca.


Zach: I did.


Zelda: We walked in right on time, ready for a great meal. Then they told us it would be an hour's wait.


Zach: Who does that? A reservation is a reservation.


Zelda: They didn’t even have a bar or anything, so we were going to have to wait outside on the street. The busy street.


Zach: Total bullshit.


Zelda: Not to mention boring, crowded, and noisy. So we went back in and cancelled the reservation.


Zach: No, we just left.


Zelda: Huh. I don't remember that part.


Zach: I'm here to tell ya! We said "ok," and walked away. They couldn't keep our reservation, so they didn't deserve a courtesy cancellation.


Zelda: I guess we showed them!


Zach: Remember what we did instead?


Zelda: We went down the street to a wine and cheese shop! Told the guy we were gonna have a picnic, and he let us taste a bunch of stuff.


Zach: He wanted to come with us.


Zelda: Maybe we should have invited him.


Zach: Nope. I wanted you all to myself. Go on...


Zelda: We bought some brie, a baguette, and a bottle of wine. He even gave us glasses and candles!


Zach: And where did we go?


Zelda: The public golf course, of course!


Zach: 'Cause we were gonna "play around!"


Zelda: Yuk, yuk!


Zach: It was close by. No fences, back then. And nice and quiet at night.


Zelda: You happened to have a couple blankets in your truck, and we had ourselves a very romantic evening in the rough by the 7th hole. 


Zach: There's a joke hiding in the tall grass there, somewhere.


Zelda: I'm sure you can find it. Take your time.


Zach: What's par for your course again?


Zelda: Depends how many holes you play.


Zach: Let's just say we had a roll in the hay.


Zelda: And then we both fell asleep!


Zach: Until...


Zelda: You woke me up, telling me to open my eyes, but keep super still. I immediately thought we were getting busted for being there.


Zach: I was afraid you'd scare them.


Zelda: And when I did open my eyes, I saw you looking toward the end of the blanket. There was a doe and her fawn, and they were just laying there on the ground right beside our blanket. So close I could hear them chewing!  


Zach: And then?


Zelda: I slowly raised up, and realized it wasn’t just one doe and one fawn, but a whole herd. They were all around us. Some were farther down at the edge of a little pond. We just sat there, watching them, for the longest time.


Zach: Best Valentine’s day EVER.


Zelda: Best Valentine’s day YET.


Zach: You really think there’s anything better than that ahead for us?


Zelda: I’m not ruling it out.

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